Ordered A Dress-Want More

Been so busy lately.  Had a cold too.  Was smoking 8 cigarettes a day, but slowed down while feeling bad.  Feeling better now.  Do I move forward on smoking to really establish a smoking addiction?  My need to have dresses addiction is growing.  Ordered a silky disco dress although I don't know how I'm going to sneak it past wife.  Let alone where to keep it.  Really want lots of silky dresses (and silky blouses and silky skirts) hanging in full view in my closet.  Have been having dreams of sucking my Mistress Alyssa's penis, than wake up and I'm sucking my thumb.  When did I start sucking my thumb>!!!  Wear a silky nighty to bed a lot too.  Being careful to hide from wife, but it starts to become so much me that I forget I'm wearing one, and might get careless.   Actually looked at an apartment thinking that I might want a new place to live.  Walked into the apartment office without thinking about it, and realized, "what am I doing?  Am I really this far down the road?!"  Wish Mistress Alyssa knew someone I could live with.  Actually really wish I could live with Mistress Alyssa!  Still working on finding make up.  Not sure what is going to happen if I start wearing make up.  But, i wear nylon panties mostly---exscept today---its No Panties Wednesday!  I'll wear thigh high nylons (need some silky ones) and a camisole.  I could wear lots of lingerie on cold day like this.