Becoming Deeply Addicted To Smoking and to Dressing

My addictions to both smoking Virginia Slim 120s and wearing silky dresses and other sexy femme things is growing each day.  Seemed to grow more today.  It feel the cravings and pleasure to dress and to smoke get so much stronger today.  And I increased my number of cigarettes that I smoked today to 5.  Its getting harder to play the charade of being a guy and non-smoker.  I find myself day dreaming about sucking my Mistress Alyssa's cock, too.

New Shopping List

I need to go shopping tomorrow.  I need some very silky thigh high nylons; a short chiffon skirt; complete set of make up.  I'm not sure what colors I will get for my make-up, but will figure it out.  Maybe dark red lipstick or red plum.  I could also use a new bra, and there is a place that I want to check for satin maids or sissy dresses.  I am always looking for silky slippery dresses, maybe one with a short skirt.  I also need a new dildo.  Or, and I need to pick up a new pack of Virginia Slim 120s.   Anything else?   Hmmmm....

I Feel So Wonderful wearing a dress

is past few days I have spent a lot of time wearing a dress or silky sheer blouse and skirt.  And it feels so good to be dressed like this.  I even love the way i feel the constriction of my bra.  I want to dress this way all the time.  Wish i didn't have to wear anymore boy clothes.  Met a guy and i felt so much like a girl with him.  We kissed and i was in heaven.  But, i stopped him there, but i wanted to go much further.  I will need to check with my Mistress Alyssa to see if this is ok.

It's No Panties Wednesday Tomorrow But I'm Home

I would wear no panties tomorrow, but nylons garter and a cami, but I'm at home tomorrow.  I have a much of chores I should do tomorrow, but I am feeling a strong urge to put on a dress and be a fetish smoking sissy girl tomorrow all day.  Some friends who I used to like want me to play golf tomorrow.  I used to love to play golf, but I seem to have more feelings of being a smoking girly.  Nothing else seems that important, but perhaps I should get out and try to be with old friends and do something I used to like to do very much.  I don't know.  When I try to think about those things my head fills up with thoughts of Mistress Alyssa, Virginia Slim 120s, silky shiny satiny clothes, dressing femme, and sucking cock.  Do I really need to wear a bra when I golf.  Are my breasts real?  Sometimes, more and more actually they feel real, but maybe if I get out with friends those feelings will stop.

Need To Change This

I am trying to figure out how to change the form on this.  Anyone have some ideas.  Needs To Become girly- like how I am changing.  And i am changing now.  Who is following my blog?  Say hi.

One Sissy Step After The Next

I can't believe that I am slowly but surely transforming into a submissive fetish smoking sissy girl, but I am taking one step after the next down the path of becoming a complete smoking sissy girl.  I painted my toenails with clear polish today.  They are so smooth and shiny now.  They are actually very sparkly.  I feel so girly looking at my feet now, and I love them that way.  I every once have a thought that I am going too far in my feminine transformation, but those thoughts fade away and I just want to keep doing things that will eventually end in my complete feminization and sissification.  And smoking Virginia Slim 120s feels so wonderful.  I feel so submissive, so controlled, so girly, and becoming more addicted after each time i inhale the sweet feminine addicting trancing white creamy smoke.

Got Nail Polish Today

Stopped off at pharmacy and picked up bottle of clear nail polish.  Probably wasn't the best selection, but I knew I needed to get some today, and was the only place I could get to.  Maybe after i start painting all my nails, I will find a better place.  I will apply the clear polish to my toenails.  Pretty paited toenails will feell so pretty and girly.  I looked around for some girls to join at a smoking break at work, but not sure yet.  I wish I could wear a dress or a skirt and blouse like the other girls.  Smoked a delicious smokey treat by myself today.  I did feel so submissive and sissy girlish as I smoked and after.  Felt very girly in a lacy bra, nylons, nylon panties and a slip.  Remembered that I had sucked my Mistress Alyssa's cock this morning.   mmmmm .  I loved it.  I really don't need pussy anymore.  I think soon I will be wearing a slave collar, but not yet ready for that.  Will be the point of no return.

Bliss Of Cigarette Smooths Doubts

I was sitting in my new office on No Panties Wednesday feeling a bit doubtful about being the feminine fetish smoking sissy I know I am.  I put on my jacket went went outside to enjoy a nice sweet Virginia Slim 120.  After a few long drags, inhaling creamy white smoke, I started feeling dreamy, and very submissive and girly.  mmmmmm. Felt myself drift into a bit of a daze.  I reached inside my shirt to feel my boobs and my lacy bra that i was wearing to support them.  My doubts of being a smoking sissy girl faded away.

1ST No Panties Wednesday At This Place

Haven't been at this office very long.  Not sure how far I can and should go with things.  It's No Panties Wednesday so I will wear a garter and nylons.  Getting cooler so easier to wear a cami.  I need a new bra.  Broke the strap on the one i really like. My boobs need to be in a bra.  I love the support I get from a bra and I love the way its outline shows against my shirt if I'm not careful.  Need to find the smoking girls group, and if they will accept me.  Maybe I should just retire and be the fetish smoking sissy girl I am all the time.  Start wearing sissy dresses all the time.

Getting Back To Becoming A Smoking Sissy

Was out of town for the weekend, and wasn't able to be the fetish smoking sissy girl I am, and need to become more of.  Couldn't even wear panties!  I had to buy some cotton boxers to wear. Yuck!  Did get a few smokes of my delicious Virginia Slim 120s, but have not been able to immerse myself into becoming completely addicted to smoking cigarettes like I must become---like I want to become.  So i can't go very long without a total craving for a cigarette.  I must be somewhat a non-addictive type since I'm not yet completely addicted.  What i really felt bad about was not being ablt to blog.  i really needed to write my blog, but didn't have a computer.  It was awful!  Am I addicted to blogging that I feel the need so much?  And it was terrible not dressing in silky slippery sheer feminine things.  I want to get divorced so I can be a girly submissive smoking sissy when I'm home all the time.  Not to mention I need to smoke a cock.  It was such bliss sucking my Mistress Alyssa's cock.  It was my first time and I loved it.  Now i must get makeup and a sissy wig this week.  And soon a shiny, silky satin sissy dress.  And I really want to do a video dressed and smoking Virginia Slim 120s showing everyone that I am Mistress Alyssa fetish smoking submissive sissy girl.

I Am All Sissy Smoking Girl Now

I am Mistress Alyssa's submissive fetish smoking sissy girl completely.  I sucked Mistress Alyssa's cock while smoking a Virginia Slim 120 tonight and it was the most wonderful sex I have ever had.  I only want to do as my Mistress Alyssa says now.  I have been wearing a dress all evening and I don't want to take it off.  I think I will have another delicious smokey treat (VS 120) and try to think why I should take it and my bra and panties and slip off.  I can't wait to get a satin shiny frilly sissy dress to wear tooo.  May I need to get a lacy collar to wear too.  And I want to do videos for Mistress Alyssa while wearing a sissy dress, make-up so im feminine and pretty and a sissy wig.  I need to find a place to get the dresses.  I just live for when I can be with my Mistress Alyssa again.  I will do lots of videos for her and I will show how much a fetish smoking sissy girl I have become.

Changing Offices- Should I Change Gender too?

Had to move to a different office site.  I was a group of the girls smoking group, but not sure at this new location.  I have started to act a bit sissy and girly, so I might be thought to be gay.Well, I guess I do think about guys now more and more, but I want to be a woman with them.  I want to smoke a Virginia Slim 120 and suck a cock at the same time.  Thinking of just telling everyone I'm transgender and start living as a girl.  But, I need to get a divorce.  Anyone know how to do that?  Should I?  I have to be careful asking for suggestions because I am so suggestible.  I need to get a sissy wig, a sissy dress, and make-up so I can do a submissive fetish smoking sissy girl video.  I'm not sure why I feel so strongly that this is something i really want to do, but the idea keeps popping into my head.  This is No Panties Wednesday, so I am wearing a garter, nylons, and camisole.   mmmmm- I am so sissy and girly.

Calming Cigarettes/Shiny Sissy Dresses

Whenever I start feeling doubtful about my feminization, I have a delicious Virginia Slim 120s and my doubts fade  away and I have a blissful feminine moment.  And just if I want to feel more feminine, more sissy, more girly, more submissive, I have started to smoke a delicious smoke and I inhale and feel the creamy white smoke working its magic on me.

And I have started dreaming of wearing a shiny, silky, satiny sissy dress and a frilly sissy collar.  What does that mean?