Where From Here?

Feel like I'm drifting these days.  Not sure where I'm going, or who I will become.  I received hormones from Phoenix Project, but not sure I want to take them.  Not even sure they really work at all.  Probably should have ordered from IN-House Pharmacy if i really wanted to physically feminize myself.  But these might have some effect.  Anyone know?  Any experience with Phoenix Project.  But, maybe I'm really a femme sissy faggot?  I really need to suck a cock to find out if I really love it like I am craving it now.  Smoking some, and i may soon increase that.  No panties tomorrow.

Sissy Habits Taking Hold Again

I was actually starting to bring david back, but my Sissy thoughts and behaviors are taking over again.  Back to wearing nylon panties instead of mens cotton boxer shorts, nylon hose instead of socks, and I bought a pack of Virginia Slim 120 Menthols which I know I will smoke.  And my cock tells me that I want to be with another CD or man instead of a woman.  Am I sliding into becoming all sissy?