Saturday, June 30, 2012
Thursday, June 28, 2012
I'm Being Overwhelmed By My Desires
What am I doing?! It's crazy, but my irresistible desires to dress in silky slippery feminine girl clothes, to smoke delicious smokey Virginia Slim 120s, and to allow Mistress Alyssa to take over my thoughts and obey her are taking over. I am beginning to actually think how I will become completely feminized into a complete girl. And everytime I start to feel doubts and to question what I am thinking and doing, I follow Mistress Alyssa's directions to pull out a Virginia Slim 120 and get lost in feelings of being submissive and feminine as I inhale the hypnotic creamy white smoke deep inside me. And all my doubts are completely forgotten. I do still think sometimes that I need to really think about all of this, but everytime I try, Mistress Alyssa's thoughts push aside all my thoughts and program me to completely accept my transition into complete womanhood. And increasingly being a girl is all that matters. I stayed home today just be be girly and smoke. It feels so natural now to wear feminine silky lingerie. I can't think of wearing guys underwear anylonger. How much longer before my shirts are substituted by silky blouses with my lacy bra and slip showing through the silky sheerness of the blouse. I don't know if it is possible anylonger to even slow these desires down, let alone stop them!
Friday, June 22, 2012
This Girl Has Been Busy
Too busy! Spent the day in Palm Springs yesterday. Wasn't all that bad temperature---about 104, with a breeze. Wish i could put on a girl bathing suit! Maybe next trip. Going out to Orange County today. Maybe I'll see my T-Girl friend.
Monday, June 18, 2012
Sunday, June 17, 2012
I've Been A Naughty Girl
I've been so naughty---not writing everyday in my diary here! I love to write in it but always seem busy and not convenient when I think of it. And been tired at night.
I want to order my shiny satiny girly Sissy Dress, Sissy Collars, and Minchers from Birch Place, but I need to put some more money. I do look at them and all i can think of is how much I want to be wearing them all. I need to show Mistress Alyssa myself wearing them. I NEED to be wearing them. I belong in a sissy dress and wearing a Sissy Slavegirl Collar. I have to be careful when I pull up the pages on them in Birch Place, as I am mesmerized and just start seeing myself wearing them and nothing else matters.
Have been talking to a nice TS lady----just friends. But, we are thinking about meeting to talk about girl stuff. I might be able to dress at her place. She also said that she can probably get me hormones, and if I'm interested set me up with a doctor. She just recently got back from having her SRS. I want to hear more about that. Having a vagina sounds wonderful.
Smoking more although I still hide it from my " roommate." The Virginia Slim 120 Menthols are sex to me---even better. Feel so feminine and submissive smoking those long beautiful white cigarettes.
Maybe take off some days soon. Been working a lot of hours. Need to spend more time with my Mistress Alyssa. I wonder how many of my smokey treats I could smoke with her?!
I want to order my shiny satiny girly Sissy Dress, Sissy Collars, and Minchers from Birch Place, but I need to put some more money. I do look at them and all i can think of is how much I want to be wearing them all. I need to show Mistress Alyssa myself wearing them. I NEED to be wearing them. I belong in a sissy dress and wearing a Sissy Slavegirl Collar. I have to be careful when I pull up the pages on them in Birch Place, as I am mesmerized and just start seeing myself wearing them and nothing else matters.
Have been talking to a nice TS lady----just friends. But, we are thinking about meeting to talk about girl stuff. I might be able to dress at her place. She also said that she can probably get me hormones, and if I'm interested set me up with a doctor. She just recently got back from having her SRS. I want to hear more about that. Having a vagina sounds wonderful.
Smoking more although I still hide it from my " roommate." The Virginia Slim 120 Menthols are sex to me---even better. Feel so feminine and submissive smoking those long beautiful white cigarettes.
Maybe take off some days soon. Been working a lot of hours. Need to spend more time with my Mistress Alyssa. I wonder how many of my smokey treats I could smoke with her?!
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Need To Take The Next Step
Couldn't stop myself. Was running late on the way home from work, but had to stop at Target for a measuring tape. Just kept thing, "I need to take the next step." And I felt so girly today. I was so silky under my men clothes. Silky camisole, mmm a nylon bra that held my jigglies so firm, nylon sheer panties---where my sweet vagina should be showing through, and nylon hose pullups. mmmm I was such a woman and no one knew---too bad. And I kept craving a delicious yummy Virginia Slim 120 Menthol. mmmmmmmmm. And now I need to go to Birch Place and order the so silky shiny satiny sissy girl dress, the sissy minchers which will lock me into sissyhood, and the 2 Sissy Collars showing i am owned completely by Mistress Alyssa. And locks so Mistress Alyssa can keep me in my sissy clothes as long as she wants. And I keep thinking that I need to start taking hormones. They will trap me permanently in femininity. I am ready for my next step.
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