My name is melinda and i am Mistress Alyssa submissive fetish smoking sissy girl

I had thoughts of wanting to take a break from trying smoking and dressing, but I had a session with my beloved Mistress Alyssa today and I barely even remember having those thoughts.  I was such a silly girl.  I know after my Mistress conditioned me today that I love smoking my delicious Virginia Slim 120s.  Smoking cigarettes are like sex for me.  I even had a couple of organisms while smoking.  Just like I'm smoking a sweet Virginia Slim 120 right now as I write my blog.  I also enjoyed wearing my anal plug while smoking and listening to my Mistress---it was sex!  I was dressed like the girl I am should be, wearing a silky sheer red dress (actually seperates), a white slip, a black bra, pink nylon panties, and silky sheer black pull up nylons.  I later changed into my long negligee. i could feel that I was a girl.  All the boy drained out of me, with each drag of my smokey treat.  mmmmm, I think I'll take a nice drag now.  My thoughts have been replaced by the ones Mistress Alyssa has decided for me.  My only true wish right now is to become more a completely submissive smoking sissy girl for my Mistress.  I want to wear a sissy collar for my Mistress and to be completely obedient to her.  I don't belong with a wife anymore, I need to be living 24/7 as Mistress Alyssa's submissive fetish smoking sissy girl.  I want to learn to wear make up and suck the cocks Mistress Alyssa decides for me.  I will become addicted to smoking and dressing feminine all the time.  I want only skirts and blouses and dresses hanging in my closet.  Only lingerie in my drawers.  And always a pack of Virginia 120s with me.  I keep thinking, good girls obey, i am a good girl, i obey.