Tired Of Being A Husband

Wife getting on my nerves today.  Keeps wanting me to be a man.  That is getting harder and harder to fake.  Had to sneak away to smoke, which calmed me down and made me feel like the girl I am.  Only got to wear panties because wife acting suspicious.  I would love to be able to hang out with other Fetish Smoking Sissy girls like me.  Would love to dress and smoke with someone.  And I am not attracted to wife's pussy anymore, I think I need to suck on a nice juicy cock.  No place to  go around here.  Put my butt plug in---felt so good.  Maybe look for a dildo too.  Starting to think about hormones.  That might push me over the edge into complete girlhood!