Need To Get Ready For Next Weekend... And Beyond

I will be living as the fetish smoking sissy girl i am the entire next weekend so i need to have a few things.  I want to have 3 new silky, slippery feminine dresses to wear.  Not sure yet where I will get those.  Maybe look at the Roamans shop in the mall.  I also need another pair or 2 of the really silky nylons.  Got some the other day at Wal-Mart but they are a bit coarse---not smooth and silky like I want on my feminine legs.  Also need another anal plug.  I had a good one but got thrown away and I dont love the one I still have.  Last time a cute guy at the shop helped me find one that penetrates to give me feminine pleasure but wasnt so big to be painful.  Thought I had a shop in Temecula to go to but it was closed.  There is still one, but it is more for couples---I think I need a store that caters more to the gay clientel.  I got some panties, although a girl can always use more.  I want another bra, and Wal Mart i think has some that would be good for me.  Oh- yes---and i need make-up- and lipstick.  I got advice to put on some makeup on my lips before putting on the lipstick to keep the color of the lipstick from sinking into my lips and permanently dying them?  I don't know if I'm yet ready for permanently red lips---am I?  Maybe soon.  And a wig!  I might need to order one, but I really need a PO box I think.  But maybe something before then.  Was kept busy the last few days---more reason to think I should be living by myself.  Oh well, my will has gotten so weak, hard to make any decisions myself.  Like I'm just waiting to be told what to do.  Wife does that and have been more appeasing to her even, because I am so submissive now, but I can feel that it is not her who should be controlling me.  Smoking my Virginia Slim 120s more, but not up to half a pack like my Mistress Alyssa has told me I will be doing.  Just holding back a little, but I know I will be there eventually.  I loved smoking with her last time sooooo much.  I was in a complete state of blisss taking those deep drags of the creamy smoke into me and holding in as my mind just melted.  It was completely sex to me.  Maybe I am scared that the only thing left of my former self would completely be dissolved if I give into more smoking.  We will see this coming weekend because I could be smoking the entire weekend which should be enough to completely entrench me as a smoker.