Fighting Urge To Show Everyone That I'm A Fetish Smoking Sissy Girl

I have started swinging my hips, flicking my hands, and showing other feminine mannerisms in public.  I have been wearing a bra because it feels so good on my jigglies and I want the outline of my bra strap and the cups to show.  I am more and more sistant with my wife because I need to be living separate from her so I can be in femme dress and smoking all the time.  And I am no longer attracted to pussy.  I want to be smoking delicious Virginia Slim 120s and my Mistress Alyssa'a juicy cock.  I need a place to start receiving all the girly clothes and makeup that I want to order through the mail.  I want to start ordering sissy dresses and satin maids dresses, and harem girl clothes and wigs through the mail.  I am most of the time sleeping in a nylon nighty, but eventually my wife will catch me and I'm afraid of her anger----I am such a sissy.  She doesn't know i smoke, and I want to start smoking all the time at home.  I want to become Mistress Alyssa's slave fetish smoking sissy girl n24/7 and to do everything she wants me to do.  I want to devote my all to her.