Choose Wife or Virginia (Slim 120s)

Wife hates smoking.  Do I love Virginia Slim 120s more than my wife?  Smoking makes me feel so much a submissive sissy girl that maybe I don't want a wife anymore.  Maybe I'd rather be a wife myself.  Maybe I crave smoking more than my wife?  I am certainly craving wearing a silky dress or a sheer blouse and a twirly skirt, nylon panties, nylon slip, nylon hose, and of course a bra to hold my breasts in.  And to be dressed and smoking...  And I really want to suck a cock.  Am I too addicted now to dressing and smoking to even need a wife?