Finally Home

After traveling most of the day, finally got home.  Been gone all  week,  thought maybe compulsions to be femme and sissy would have receded.  But, I was craving getting into a satin half slip, nylon panties, nylon stockings more than ever as I got closer to being home.  And couldn't stop thinking about Virginia Slim 120s.

Going Through A Sissification Transformation

I am transforming into a femmy faggy sissy.  I love dressing in silky, sheer, frilly, slippery,satiny feminine clothing.  I grow weak just thinking of smoking a slender white feminine Virginia Slim 120 Menthol.  I'm not addicted, but i will be soon.  I think that i shall be retiring soon, maybe to relocate.  Not sure I can stop this transformation, even if i really wanted to.

Where From Here?

Feel like I'm drifting these days.  Not sure where I'm going, or who I will become.  I received hormones from Phoenix Project, but not sure I want to take them.  Not even sure they really work at all.  Probably should have ordered from IN-House Pharmacy if i really wanted to physically feminize myself.  But these might have some effect.  Anyone know?  Any experience with Phoenix Project.  But, maybe I'm really a femme sissy faggot?  I really need to suck a cock to find out if I really love it like I am craving it now.  Smoking some, and i may soon increase that.  No panties tomorrow.

Sissy Habits Taking Hold Again

I was actually starting to bring david back, but my Sissy thoughts and behaviors are taking over again.  Back to wearing nylon panties instead of mens cotton boxer shorts, nylon hose instead of socks, and I bought a pack of Virginia Slim 120 Menthols which I know I will smoke.  And my cock tells me that I want to be with another CD or man instead of a woman.  Am I sliding into becoming all sissy?

How long do cigarettes last?

I have a number of packs of Virginia Slim 120s stored in boxes in my closet.  Some of the packs are open.  How long are the cigarettes good for, I wonder?  I haven't been smoking.  Have thought about trying them again, but not sure if I should buy a new pack.  Not sure I really want to go back to smoking, but can't get the thought of those delicious smokey treats out of my mind.  Wore cotton boxers today under my mens slacks, but thought about silky nylon panties again.  Thinking about going to a Gay bar, but I'm not Gay!  Been feeling a bit lost actually.

Little Lost Girl

Feel lost lately.  Not been on computer much, which helps me focus.  Have mostly stopped smoking.  So don't get those intense feelings of being a fetish smoking sissy girl.  Have gone back to wearing mens boxer undershorts.  Not dressing much at all.  Still can't purge the femme feelings altogether.  But, without a mistress or master controlling me, my guy self is re-emerging I think.I was so close at one point to becoming completely feminized and sissified!   I was ready to start hormones, get castrated, suck a cock, get a cock up my rear  hole, move out to start dressing full-time.  Chain smoking Virginia Slim 120s---was almost 1-pack a day.  On the way to 2-pack a day.Was at the cliff of becoming totally girl ready to step off into no return to being a guy.  Than my Yahoo-crashed and from there a separation occurred.  Even forgotten my Fet-Life Password.  Have stopped hanging around the girl smokers at break.  Can I just be my guy-self?

Still Fiddling With My Computer

Computer still giving me grief.  Think I need a vacation or something.  Maybe go somewhere and live as a girl there.  Need to find out if I can do that.  Smoke and dress.  Wish I could find a cock to suck too!