Where From Here?

Feel like I'm drifting these days.  Not sure where I'm going, or who I will become.  I received hormones from Phoenix Project, but not sure I want to take them.  Not even sure they really work at all.  Probably should have ordered from IN-House Pharmacy if i really wanted to physically feminize myself.  But these might have some effect.  Anyone know?  Any experience with Phoenix Project.  But, maybe I'm really a femme sissy faggot?  I really need to suck a cock to find out if I really love it like I am craving it now.  Smoking some, and i may soon increase that.  No panties tomorrow.