Back To Work

Work wasn't as bad today as I thought it would be.  Got involved in some projects.  But problem was I was identifying so much as a woman, that I was having a very difficult time just being a girl in everything i was doing at work.  I just kept feeling that i should be in full makeup, a wig, skirt blouse, bra, lingerie, heels and hose.  And of course I need to smoke my Virginia Slim 120s.  I wish i could just transition.  Not sure what im going to do about home.  Wife would never accept the girl me.  But, I keep becoming more and more a girl, and less and less good at acting like a guy with her.  But, i need to keep going further and further into being the girl who is really me.  I cant stop it.  I dont want to stop it.  I just want to be Mistress Alyssa's Fetish Smoking Sissy Girl.  Hard to find time to write here in my diary but i have to.  Dont feel right until i do.