Smoking In My House

It has been weird the last few days.  I was chatting with Mistress, sitting at the kitchen table, when I heard my wife driving into the garage.  It startled me as I suddenly realized that I had a delicious Virginia Slim 120 in my mouth and I was holding a match ready to light up my cigarette. My wife doesn't know I smoke let alone that I would smoke in the house! I didnt even realize that i was about to lite up.   But, the craving for the smoke was wiping out all other thoughts, and it took all my will to close my laptop and run outside to smoke where my wife wouldn't see me.  I couldnt believe that I came that close to smoking in the house, even without wife being there.  I can't figure out what i was thinking....   But, the thought of smoking in the house does seem very, very nice.   .