Melinda- Business Woman

Went out of town on business trip.  Had fun but many things did not go as they should have gone for me.  Couldn't get a smoking room like I really wanted so I could have smoked with my Mistress Alyssa, and smoked much more often my delicious Virginia Slim 120s.  I did finally get to talk to my Mistress Alyssa, although I think I talked much longer than I remember.  Time just seems to disappear when I talk to my Mistress Alyssa.  I do feel sooo wonderful when i'm talking with her.  There is nothing better than being with her.  After we talked, I took off my silky nightie, which it felt so erotic to sleep in, and put on my silky magenta silky polyester long sleeve blouse and long skirt set.  I was just craving a smoke, and I could not resist running out the back of the hotel, since I dare not smoke in the room---although I almost did since the compulsion to light up was so very very strong.  I don't know what I was thinking but other than the NEED to smoke my sexy feminine Virginia 120s.  I didnt have wig or make-up on (which I have been feeling an almost equally strong compulsion to start wearing---but my only thoughts were that I am a smoking girl who needs to smoke her cigarettes in her skirt and blouse.  I was out back, and only a few persons passed near the area, but I dont think they paid me any attention.  Funny though, I think I wanted people to see me in my skirt and blouse (and bra with my jigglies).  I was enjoying myself so much I didn't even realize that I lit up another delicious Virginia Slim 120.  I was just finishing my second cigarette, when my cell phone went off, letting me know they wanted to meet for breakfast.  As much as I wanted to go dressed as the girl whom I am, I did run back to the room and change into yucky mens clothes.  I wanted very much to go back to the room after and call mjy Mistress Alyssa, but I got dragged off to meetings for the rest of the day.  I had left on nylon and panties and a cami and thigh high nylons, but I could not shake the constant thoughts that I needed to be wearing a dress.  One person I heard comment that someone in another department had come back to work as a transgender woman, and I was wishing that was me.  When I finally got back to my room, I found the wi-fi not working.  I was going to go down and check on a new password, and I fell asleep.  Seemed to have come down with a nasty cough, and sore throat that night.,  Even though it hurt some to smoke,  I did smoke some the rest of my time there, although I didnt go out dressed.  Slept in my nightie and sucked my thumb, which has become an irresistible habit, but had little time to dress as melinda should be dressed all the time.  Came home last night. 

As soon as I am over this cough, I want to see about getting a hotel room somewhere just to be melinda, Mistress Alyssa's Fetish smoking sissy girl.  I keep having thoughts of what it would be like to live as a full-time girl.