I Need A Cock In Me

I can't stop thinking about smoking sweet creamy Virginia Slim 120s and how pleasureable it is to suck on them, and how much I want to suck on a cock too so I will be completely girly.  I no longer doubt that i am going to chose to live as a feminine Fetish Smoking Girly Sissy, and that I want to become a 2-pack a-day smoking girl for my Mistress Alyssa.  I have been too busy at work to join the other girls at smoking breaks, but I feel the need to be with them and to start increasing my addiction and craving to smoke cigarettes.  I think that the girls think I'm gay and want to encourage me to start dating guys.  I do want to date guys and have them put their delicious hard cocks into my mouth and rear pussy hole, but I am a girl so I need guys!  I have felt so strongly this way since i talked to my Mistress Alyssa on the weekend, but it is funny that I don't remember a lot of what we were talking about.  Just was feeling so wonderful and loving smoking Virginia Slim 120s and being so girly in a polyester matching blouses and long skirt.

I Choose To Be Transformed Into Mistress Alyssa's Fetish Smoking Sissy Girl

I had been thinking that I should stay a guy, but after a wonderful talk with my beautiful Mistress Alyssa, I know that I must become a Fetish Smoking Sissy Girl.  I was talking to Mistress Alyssa, and I was feeling so relaxed that it became easy for me to realize that I am really a girl and how much I love to smoke delicious Virginia Slim 120s and how erotic and feminine they make me feel. I was trying to smoke just a few cigarettes from time to time, but Mistress helped me enjoy some with her while I was dressed so femininely in a red silky skirt and blouse, and I want to become completely addicted to smoking and that I want to become a 2 pack a day girl smoker.  I don't remember how the feeling became so strong the other day, but suddenly I just knew that my decision was to completely give myself over to Mistress Alyssa so that she could transform me into a totla Fetish Smoking Sissy Girl.  I know that I want to give up everything else in my life so that I can be the best smoking girl I can be.

Need My Virginia Slim 120s

Was thinking that I was going to go a day without smoking, but was in my panties and realized that I am a smoking girl and I need to smoke.  I will go to the store and buy a pack.  I was being so silly.  i love smoking my VS 120s and feeling submissive and girly.  I also need a cock to suck and to put in my pussy hole because I am a girl and I need that.  Maybe my Mistress Alyssa will find a man for me.  I will stop trying to be a guy and get going to complete my feminine transformation.

Was Gone On Business- Tried To stop the feminization and smoking

Was away, and tried to reverse my feminization and from becoming a smoker.  Came back and talked to my Mistress Alyssa and the need to wear panties and smoke delicious Virginia Slim 120s came back even stronger.  Thinking that I will just get divorced and begin living full-time as my Mistress's smoking girl.  I bought mens cotton boxer shorts to wear, but i cannot resist my nylon girly panties.  i have tried to hold off getting a pack of VS 120s but I can't stop thinking about them. 

I Am An Obediant Girl

I obeyed my Mistress Alyssa and added Yahoo Beta Messinger.  I am Mistress's good girl and i obey.  I had to take the Messinger off, because it wasn't working right.  My video cam was showing me in my silky polyester red dress, which almost put me in a trance watching.  Couldn't get other functions working at all the same time.  Also don't wan't Messinger to show when I'm not in Yahoo.  After I am living on my own as Mistress Alyssa's fetish smoking girl, than it will be alright.  Ran out of delicious Virginia Slim 120s.  I was home, so I smoked more.  I may need to keep smoking more, even at work.  Gives me so much pleasure, and I realize I am really a girl and I need to be controlled.

Make Up Is Wonderful

I never realized how wonderful make up is.  I just have to start wearing it.  Lipstick, eyeliner, blush, mascara!  I hardly know where to start.  I just know I have to start wearing it.  I can't decide what I want more---to start leaving my red lipstick on one of my Virginia Slim 120s as I smoke it, or on a man's cock as I'm sucking on it.  Will probably be a cigarette first, because I haven't become the cock sucking girl I need to be yet, but i am very much a smoking girl!  And I want to be more and more girly.  Need to let the girls on the smoke breaks i really am one of them.  Will start wearing nylon hose with no socks.  Need to start wearing make up---maybe a little bit at a time.  I so want to be a girl!  I need to find a cock to suck.  Any volunteers out there want to start me off?  You know i will need to have a sexy feminine Virginia Slim 120 right after.  Maybe we can smoke together?!

Joined the other girls on smoke breaks

I started smoking with the other girls on breaks today.  They thought i fit in perfect.  A couple said that they always felt I was like another girlfriend.  Of course, I had boy clothes on on the outside.  But was wearing nylon panties a smooth silky cami and nylon pantyhose underneath'  I couldn't help swishing today when i walked.  Felt so much pleasure smoking the Virginia Slim 120s.  one of the girls said I was smoking a girly cigarette, and I felt good about it.  Maybe one day i will be in a skirt and a blouse smoking with them.  It feels like a strong fetish now to be smoking---i can't control it anymore.  I smoked 4 cigarettes today, and I know i will soon be smoking more.  Taste so good, and I think about their taste.  Just like I think about dressing more and being more feminine and wanting to obey my Mistress Alyssa.Found myself looking through the Divorce Magazine.  Hmmmm.