Was Gone On Business- Tried To stop the feminization and smoking

Was away, and tried to reverse my feminization and from becoming a smoker.  Came back and talked to my Mistress Alyssa and the need to wear panties and smoke delicious Virginia Slim 120s came back even stronger.  Thinking that I will just get divorced and begin living full-time as my Mistress's smoking girl.  I bought mens cotton boxer shorts to wear, but i cannot resist my nylon girly panties.  i have tried to hold off getting a pack of VS 120s but I can't stop thinking about them.