Been Traveling

Sorry my Dear Diary.  Have been traveling and out of state for almost a couple of weeks.  I was living as a guy again, as it was impossible to bring my girl clothes with.  Also didn't smoke!  Was this all crazy.  Am I back to living as a guy, or was this a temporary thing?  I could still feel the NEED to smoke and dress, all the while I wasn't.  The craving to weakened some, and maybe this is a point that I can stop smoking and dressing??  I do know I am a girl, and that I will always be a smoker even if I don't smoke.  And I looked up the Sissy Dress from Birch Place and I was hypnotized by it until I could click off it.  I am in a cotton t-shirt, cotton boxer shorts, and cotton cargo shorts right now, but my thoughts keep going to the slippery silky feel of polyester, nylon, silk, or chiffon....  I'm trying not to think about those things.  And I know I will always love Mistress Alyssa so much and want to obey her.  I can't help that I am so submissive, and love to nbe controlled and hypnotized.