At The Cliff Of Committing To Living Completely As A Girl

Talked to wife the other night about making changes in our lives.  Could not tell her that I needed to commit to my transition completely into a girl.  She was not very receptive at all to changes that did not mean that I was going to act more like a husband and less like I was the wife.  She said that maybe I would need to move out if I needed to make different changes, although she couldn't understand what those changes could be.  And she is definitely not interested in anyone who would smoke.  I certainly didn't know what to say to all of this, so I went for a walk and lighted up a Virginia Slim 120.  After that I just felt calm and went to bed after I got home.  I am just having a hard time thinking of what to do from here.  I don't even know where I would go if wife kicked me out.  I'm not even sure how I would go about transitioning physically into a girl.  Maybe I need to take time out?