Becoming Deeply Addicted To Smoking and to Dressing

My addictions to both smoking Virginia Slim 120s and wearing silky dresses and other sexy femme things is growing each day.  Seemed to grow more today.  It feel the cravings and pleasure to dress and to smoke get so much stronger today.  And I increased my number of cigarettes that I smoked today to 5.  Its getting harder to play the charade of being a guy and non-smoker.  I find myself day dreaming about sucking my Mistress Alyssa's cock, too.