Silky Sheer Blouse

I should track how things are going during this time of purging for me, I think.  So as to insure I don't lose my way and fall back into my femmy, faggy sissy boi ways.

I wanted to get out of the office at lunch today.  I decide that just a trip over to the local mall and a stroll around would help to clear my head.  I really did need some new men's cotton boxer undershorts. I had been neglecting my supply of men's underwear lately, and had been replacing them with silky nylon panties instead.  Since my plan is to stop wearing panties, I would need some new boxers.  I had not worn amy panties today, but couldn't bring myself to put on any mens underpants either.  I think without even thinking, I had slipped on some nylon thigh highs.  When I realized what I had done, I was going to take them off, but for some reason I felt I had to leave them on.  And, to make sure they didn't slip down, I put on a garter belt.  attaching the nylons to the clips on the garters gave me an incredible feeling of bliss.  I need to stop doing this!  Walking through Macy's Store, I really concentrated on not swishing.  Darlings, its such a forceful habit to get rid of swaying your hips.  I was totally in the wrong part of the store!  Women's sexy feminine blouses on all sides of me!  My eyes were captured by an all-so feminine, Emerald, silky-sheer ruffled blouse.  Mmmmmm-so lovely.  It was practically floating off the rack!  I had stopped and was just staring at the blouse.  My fantasies took me to all sorts of places that I must not go anymore!  I could feel the soft, smooth silkiness as I lightly touched the material.  It was polyester and nylon----my favorites!  The 3/4 sleeves were billowly and so very sheer.  I couldn't stop the thoughts of how I would look wearing the blouse, maybe with a matching chiffon skirt and a lacy bra that would show through the semi-transparency of the silky blouse.  Sometimes a nylon slip is also so wonderful to wear under a silky blouse so you can feel the silky over silky slipping over each other.  I had to pull myself away before i gave into the desire to buy the blouse, and perhaps break my purge!  I could already feel myself giving in as I managed to escape the department.  Will I ever be able to stop these femmy faggy feelings that have gotten such a hold over me?  I think that it must be possible.  Just need to not think about those feelings...