Back From Short Trip

Went out for dinner.  Walked around the Gas Lamp District some.  Not too much.  Not a lot of time.  I could use a longer time away.  Kept eyeing the dressed up ladies---actually for what they were wearing rather for themselves.  Everytime I saw a girl smoking, it held my gaze.  Just have this craving of wanting to become addicted completely and irresistibly to smoking long feminine white 120 Menthol cigarettes.  Where I constantly need to light up.  And with strong feelings that I am a femmy, faggy, smoking sissy boi.  Why am I with a woman?