Need To Show My Girly Self

Took a vicodin and didn;t wake up last night.  Had lots of girly dreams although.  Felt SO girly this morning.  I might wear a blouse today---I have one that isn't too girly that I can get away with at work.  Just need to be dressed as the girl I am.  Not sure why I need to do that so bad this morning.  Of course, wear a silky cami and lacy bra underneath.  I keep having thoughts about moving out to live as a smoking girl all the time.  Feeling the NEED to do this.  Thinking of sucking cock, too.  Can't ask Dolores about that because she wouldnt know anything about that! Lol.  Maybe I can start wearing bits of make-up too.  I will bring my pink cigarette case with me today.  I know I will want to take it out to look at it a lot, so than I will of course  have to smoke.  Haven't been smoking much lately, but I am craving them more now.  Just taloking about them makes me want to smoke a delicious Virginia Slim 120 now.  I think I need to buy a pack of VS 120 menthols today.  They get into my head more than just the regular ones.  Wish i could stay longer, but should get going now.