I'm Being Overwhelmed By My Desires

What am I doing?!  It's crazy, but my irresistible desires to dress in silky slippery feminine girl clothes, to smoke delicious smokey Virginia Slim 120s, and to allow Mistress Alyssa to take over my thoughts and obey her are taking over.  I am beginning to actually think how I will become completely feminized into a complete girl. And everytime I start to feel doubts and to question what I am thinking and doing, I follow Mistress Alyssa's directions to pull out a Virginia Slim 120 and get lost in feelings of being submissive and feminine as I inhale the hypnotic creamy white smoke deep inside me.  And all my doubts are completely forgotten.  I do still think sometimes that I need to really think about all of this, but everytime I try, Mistress Alyssa's thoughts push aside all my thoughts and program me to completely accept my transition into complete womanhood.  And increasingly being a girl is all that matters.  I stayed home today just be be girly and smoke.  It feels so natural now to wear feminine silky lingerie.  I can't think of wearing guys underwear anylonger.  How much longer before my shirts are substituted by silky blouses with my lacy bra and slip showing through the silky sheerness of the blouse.  I don't know if it is possible anylonger to even slow these desires down, let alone stop them!