Feel So Alone Lately

I have found it harder and harder to act like a guy, lately.  But, I feel like I'm by myself because my true self- my girl self, has no one to be with.  I want to be Melinda Anne with someone---anyone!  Do I need a bf, a gf, another cd to relate to.  I need to have someone to help me with my makeup, my dressing, my smoking...