Have I Been Conditioned Too Deep As A Smoking Girl To Stop?

I am trying to consider being male, but I am a smoking girl now, and I love smoking Virginia Slim 120s and I love wearing a dress and being girly.  My conditioning and shaping by Mistress Alyssa is so deep and strong and I can only be what she decides for me.  I am so submissive to my Mistress Alyssa and obey her completely.  I am a submissive femme smoking girl.