I Am An Obediant Girl

I obeyed my Mistress Alyssa and added Yahoo Beta Messinger.  I am Mistress's good girl and i obey.  I had to take the Messinger off, because it wasn't working right.  My video cam was showing me in my silky polyester red dress, which almost put me in a trance watching.  Couldn't get other functions working at all the same time.  Also don't wan't Messinger to show when I'm not in Yahoo.  After I am living on my own as Mistress Alyssa's fetish smoking girl, than it will be alright.  Ran out of delicious Virginia Slim 120s.  I was home, so I smoked more.  I may need to keep smoking more, even at work.  Gives me so much pleasure, and I realize I am really a girl and I need to be controlled.

Make Up Is Wonderful

I never realized how wonderful make up is.  I just have to start wearing it.  Lipstick, eyeliner, blush, mascara!  I hardly know where to start.  I just know I have to start wearing it.  I can't decide what I want more---to start leaving my red lipstick on one of my Virginia Slim 120s as I smoke it, or on a man's cock as I'm sucking on it.  Will probably be a cigarette first, because I haven't become the cock sucking girl I need to be yet, but i am very much a smoking girl!  And I want to be more and more girly.  Need to let the girls on the smoke breaks i really am one of them.  Will start wearing nylon hose with no socks.  Need to start wearing make up---maybe a little bit at a time.  I so want to be a girl!  I need to find a cock to suck.  Any volunteers out there want to start me off?  You know i will need to have a sexy feminine Virginia Slim 120 right after.  Maybe we can smoke together?!

Joined the other girls on smoke breaks

I started smoking with the other girls on breaks today.  They thought i fit in perfect.  A couple said that they always felt I was like another girlfriend.  Of course, I had boy clothes on on the outside.  But was wearing nylon panties a smooth silky cami and nylon pantyhose underneath'  I couldn't help swishing today when i walked.  Felt so much pleasure smoking the Virginia Slim 120s.  one of the girls said I was smoking a girly cigarette, and I felt good about it.  Maybe one day i will be in a skirt and a blouse smoking with them.  It feels like a strong fetish now to be smoking---i can't control it anymore.  I smoked 4 cigarettes today, and I know i will soon be smoking more.  Taste so good, and I think about their taste.  Just like I think about dressing more and being more feminine and wanting to obey my Mistress Alyssa.Found myself looking through the Divorce Magazine.  Hmmmm.