Been Missing

Dear Diary---Sorry.  Been not writing for a few days.  Brother-in-law staying here and driving me nuts!  Much harder to find Girl Time for me with him around.

I need to find out if my Sissy Dress has shipped.  They were making it last I saw.  Not sure how long it takes to ship.  Want to look for it so bro in law does not pick it up.  I really need my own personal mailing address.  Not even sure what happens when i get the dress, the ribbons, and collar.  will I just hide it away and not even wear it?  Too scary to put on?  Was experimenting with camera to try taking pictures on my computer, but have lagged on everything lately.  Had No Panty Wednesday, but didnt have the usual excitement that i do most of the time.  Bob has even been interfering with my smoking.  I havent stopped, but have slowed down some.

Am off tomorrow.  Hope to have some time to myself.  Maybe even get to talk to Mistress.  Maybe I'll just sit around in a dress and smoke all day!  Maybe I need to go out to a hotel room.  Maybe I should just retire ---maybe leave everybody here and move to Oregon?  I don't know.  I need someone controlling what I do.

He Is The Bride: Dress Up Week

He Is The Bride: Dress Up Week:   Maybe someday, i will wear these under my bridal gown.

sissy training extreme

sissy training extreme    I loved this!

Was Such A Cutie Yesterday

Mostly a sweet wonderful Valentine's Day yesterday.  I put on black silky car was pants and a sexy silky black blouse over a lacy black bra and nylon black slip and wore it most of the day---even out shopping a bit.  I felt soooo Girly and feminine wearing those things.  Also had on pink heels and a smudge of pink lipstick.  And i was fell completely into a trance having a Virginia Slim 120 with Mistress Alyssa.  I have not felt so high in a while, Giggle.  I couldn't believe how strong a hold over the silky slacks had on me.  I so much did not want to take them off.  Wish i could have spent even more time in them.  Maybe this Saturday---might have more of the day to dress up pretty.  And i was taking some pictures of my self.  Still trying to figure out how to put the pictures up here, in FetLife, and my Yahoo profile like Mistress Alyssa wants me to.  Will be playing around with that the next few days.  Can't stop thinking that I suddenly seem to moving more forward in my feminization.  Showed you a Lolita Dress that i'm having the itch to order.  And want to get even more girly clothes.  But, I should probably hold off until my dress from Birch Place gets here---soon, I hope.  Actually they said that they were making it, and that they would let me know as soon as nit shipped.  I just have this little feeling that that dress is going to change me even more.

Wore Lipstick Driving Home

I had a sudden compulsion to stop and buy a tube of lipstick right after leaving work last night.  Stopped at a CVS Pharmacy and picked up a tube of bright Pink (forgot the exact shade).  I also found myself wanting gloss, but couldn't find it.  Still feeling a need for it, so maybe I'll look for some gloss today.  Felt SOOO girly driving home with my bright pink lipstick on and also wearing high heels.  I was very aware of wearing the lipstick, except my thoughts seemed to blank out as I walked into the house.  Wow, I almost panicked as I realized as i got inside that I hadn't wiped off the lipstick.  I'm not ready yet to announce my girlhood to my wife, and she wouldn't have missed the lipstick i don't think!  But, she wasn't even home.  So I left the lipstick on for a while longer ---giggle. Felt so perfect walking around at home in heels and wearing lipstick, and just in a bra (no panties---No Panty Wednesday, giggle) and nylons and garter and a cami.  Pranced around for a while.  mmmm I'm such a girl!

Classic Satin Stand-up Collar Empire Multi-Layer Floor-length Lolita Dress With Ruffles– Discount Lolita Dresses

Classic Satin Stand-up Collar Empire Multi-Layer Floor-length Lolita Dress With Ruffles– Discount Lolita Dresses

Now that I've ordered my Sissy Dress, I'm getting the itch to order more things!

Tired Of Being A Husband

Wife getting on my nerves today.  Keeps wanting me to be a man.  That is getting harder and harder to fake.  Had to sneak away to smoke, which calmed me down and made me feel like the girl I am.  Only got to wear panties because wife acting suspicious.  I would love to be able to hang out with other Fetish Smoking Sissy girls like me.  Would love to dress and smoke with someone.  And I am not attracted to wife's pussy anymore, I think I need to suck on a nice juicy cock.  No place to  go around here.  Put my butt plug in---felt so good.  Maybe look for a dildo too.  Starting to think about hormones.  That might push me over the edge into complete girlhood!