Becoming Deeply Addicted To Smoking and to Dressing

My addictions to both smoking Virginia Slim 120s and wearing silky dresses and other sexy femme things is growing each day.  Seemed to grow more today.  It feel the cravings and pleasure to dress and to smoke get so much stronger today.  And I increased my number of cigarettes that I smoked today to 5.  Its getting harder to play the charade of being a guy and non-smoker.  I find myself day dreaming about sucking my Mistress Alyssa's cock, too.

New Shopping List

I need to go shopping tomorrow.  I need some very silky thigh high nylons; a short chiffon skirt; complete set of make up.  I'm not sure what colors I will get for my make-up, but will figure it out.  Maybe dark red lipstick or red plum.  I could also use a new bra, and there is a place that I want to check for satin maids or sissy dresses.  I am always looking for silky slippery dresses, maybe one with a short skirt.  I also need a new dildo.  Or, and I need to pick up a new pack of Virginia Slim 120s.   Anything else?   Hmmmm....

I Feel So Wonderful wearing a dress

is past few days I have spent a lot of time wearing a dress or silky sheer blouse and skirt.  And it feels so good to be dressed like this.  I even love the way i feel the constriction of my bra.  I want to dress this way all the time.  Wish i didn't have to wear anymore boy clothes.  Met a guy and i felt so much like a girl with him.  We kissed and i was in heaven.  But, i stopped him there, but i wanted to go much further.  I will need to check with my Mistress Alyssa to see if this is ok.

It's No Panties Wednesday Tomorrow But I'm Home

I would wear no panties tomorrow, but nylons garter and a cami, but I'm at home tomorrow.  I have a much of chores I should do tomorrow, but I am feeling a strong urge to put on a dress and be a fetish smoking sissy girl tomorrow all day.  Some friends who I used to like want me to play golf tomorrow.  I used to love to play golf, but I seem to have more feelings of being a smoking girly.  Nothing else seems that important, but perhaps I should get out and try to be with old friends and do something I used to like to do very much.  I don't know.  When I try to think about those things my head fills up with thoughts of Mistress Alyssa, Virginia Slim 120s, silky shiny satiny clothes, dressing femme, and sucking cock.  Do I really need to wear a bra when I golf.  Are my breasts real?  Sometimes, more and more actually they feel real, but maybe if I get out with friends those feelings will stop.

Need To Change This

I am trying to figure out how to change the form on this.  Anyone have some ideas.  Needs To Become girly- like how I am changing.  And i am changing now.  Who is following my blog?  Say hi.

One Sissy Step After The Next

I can't believe that I am slowly but surely transforming into a submissive fetish smoking sissy girl, but I am taking one step after the next down the path of becoming a complete smoking sissy girl.  I painted my toenails with clear polish today.  They are so smooth and shiny now.  They are actually very sparkly.  I feel so girly looking at my feet now, and I love them that way.  I every once have a thought that I am going too far in my feminine transformation, but those thoughts fade away and I just want to keep doing things that will eventually end in my complete feminization and sissification.  And smoking Virginia Slim 120s feels so wonderful.  I feel so submissive, so controlled, so girly, and becoming more addicted after each time i inhale the sweet feminine addicting trancing white creamy smoke.

Got Nail Polish Today

Stopped off at pharmacy and picked up bottle of clear nail polish.  Probably wasn't the best selection, but I knew I needed to get some today, and was the only place I could get to.  Maybe after i start painting all my nails, I will find a better place.  I will apply the clear polish to my toenails.  Pretty paited toenails will feell so pretty and girly.  I looked around for some girls to join at a smoking break at work, but not sure yet.  I wish I could wear a dress or a skirt and blouse like the other girls.  Smoked a delicious smokey treat by myself today.  I did feel so submissive and sissy girlish as I smoked and after.  Felt very girly in a lacy bra, nylons, nylon panties and a slip.  Remembered that I had sucked my Mistress Alyssa's cock this morning.   mmmmm .  I loved it.  I really don't need pussy anymore.  I think soon I will be wearing a slave collar, but not yet ready for that.  Will be the point of no return.